Obedience
Before continuing
the narrative of how religious life died, it is important to say something more
about the contentious word obedience.
The root of the word is to listen,
not just any listening, but a willingness for whatever. In fact, the whole
point of Christian life, much less the religious life, is to help people
fine-tune the art of interior listening, what I often refer to as attentive,
responsive receptivity, to 'seek to the beholding'. This acute listening
assumes a community of mature people who respect one another.
The reality is
that such communities are few and far between, if they exist at all. In the
flush of trying to live an 'authentic' monastic life—which, of course, is
self-defeating—people tend to turn unthinkingly to the stereotypes, often
romantic and unrealistic, to apply to their own situations. It doesn't seem to
have occurred to anyone to gather a group of like-minded, mature individuals to
live together and allow the life simply to unfold under the guidance of the
Holy Spirit, so that little needs to be said or written down as was the case in
the 4th century desert.
Obedience is often
abused, in part because the sense of this acute listening at the deepest level
has been lost in the miasma of words and inherited misinterpretations that now
constitute what is horribly called formation. Instead of acute listening, obedience became, and to a large extent
remains, a series of power games. There are ridiculous stories of how far
obedience has been pushed in the past, and I'm afraid that a lot of them are
true. Novices used to be taught that they should be so obedient that they
should anticipate a superior's orders. This implies that the subject should be
fixated on the superior, and as noted above, dependence mistaken for obedience
is no obedience at all. Perhaps the reality underpinning such a statement is
that one should be so tuned in to the community and the common good that certain orders should not
have to be given.
But the impression
that a superior gives orders and the subject obeys them is a caricature of what
is meant by obedience. This notion comes from a too-literal reading of stories
of the desert fathers and mothers where novices are told to plant dead sticks
in the desert which then miraculously sprout and flower. Such stories, based on
the reality that some plants, especially grapevines, when dormant do look like dead sticks, are rather parables of the
soul: the new novice is a dead stick, but if he plants himself in the desert,
that is, in silence, simplicity and singleness of heart, if he waters the
seemingly sterile sand with his tears of repentance—his efforts to come to that
listening silence—then he will bear fruit.
Certainly there
are times when a superior gives orders—job assignments, for example. But the
superior is not infallible and can mis-match people and jobs, in which case the
subject should make representations. If she finds out that she is the only
person available and the job must be done, then she should give it her best
shot. But it is also true that sometimes there are situations when the person,
obedient to the inner voice, will be treated with gross unfairness bordering on
abuse, but who perseveres because he or she is aiming for a goal that is
perhaps beyond the view of the superior. Someone might find himself in a
situation where carefully made arrangements for living alongside a community or
as a long-term guest are disregarded by the superior, and all sorts of
outrageous things done to try to dislodge him. But, having entered the
situation to learn something that the superior is incapable of understanding,
the person simply accepts the irrational demands because he or she realises
that a higher goal is being fulfilled. Such a response can enrage a superior
who is using obedience for
political ends, which means that the arrangement will be eventually terminated
in any case, but the person can walk away having learned what he came to
learn—the joy of service without any thought for oneself, for example, or the
ability to love people who hate, or a strengthened fidelity to an inner voice
that is steadfast and not subject to caprice or power games. This sort of thing
does not happen very often, and the circumstances have to be very unusual—it is
more common, and usually wiser, to terminate such arrangements before they get
out of hand—but they do occur. If the inner vision is strong enough, the person
will do just about anything, and put up with just about anything, to follow it.
This is the reasoning behind Benedict's suggestion that the aspirant be kept
waiting outside for two or three days.
All the vows merge
into one vow. All the vows are intended to help a person to beholding no matter
what the circumstance. Poverty and chastity (not to be confused with celibacy)
strip away the distractions of ownership and entanglements. In their healthy
forms they increase appreciation and
respect for the material creation and other human beings because the person
learns to listen at ever deeper levels. None of the practices traditionally
associated with these vows is an end in itself; the vows are means to an end.
They help a person to live in equipoise, integrated and responsive to whatever
situation he or she may find him or herself in, whether inside a formal
community or living an ordinary life in the world. The vows are simply an
extension of baptismal vows, which are only a token of a life-long process of
learning to behold, to re-centre in the deep mind. Here is Cassian:
'But we ought to be aware on
what we should have the purpose of our mind fixed, and to what goal we should
ever recall the gaze of our soul: and when the mind can secure this it may
rejoice; and grieve and sigh when it is withdrawn from this, and as often as it
discovers itself to have fallen away from gazing on Him, it should admit that
it has lapsed from the highest good, considering that even a momentary
departure from gazing on Christ is fornication. And when our gaze has wandered
ever so little from Him, let us turn the eyes of the soul back to Him, and
recall our mental gaze as in a perfectly straight direction. For everything
depends on the inward frame of mind, and when the devil has been expelled from
this, and sins no longer reign in it, it follows that the kingdom of God is
founded in us, as the Evangelist says "The kingdom of God cometh not with
observation, nor shall men say Lo [ecce/idou] here, or lo [ecce/idou]
there: for verily [ecce enim/idou]
I say unto you that the kingdom of God is within you."' Cassian, Conferences, 1:13; translation
www.osb.org/lectio/cassian/conf/book1/conf1.html#1.13.
1 Comments:
This is a very thought-provoking blog,but it is also quite scary. To get to that sort of listening which enables obedience in the way you mean, will require us getting rid of a lot of "stuff" before such listening can be totally unfiltered. The problem is, that we become so emeshed with our stuff, that to reliquish it causes quite a bit of bleeding, which is very painful.
I also think, that to get to the state of poverty, chastity etc, when there are no more distractions, the nothingness of ourselves makes the enormity of God that much more overwhelming, and while we long for it very deeply, it is also terrifying.
Much easier to hide in noisy verbal prayer and LOTS of self-satisfying Good Works!
Thanks for this - I don't always like what you write, but invariably I need it!
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